Its Alive!

It is truly me... I have to say it has been a restful but uncomfortable week. I had hoped to be off the pain medicine and just using ibuprofen now, because I hate that cloudy pain meds feeling.... but that isn't happening quite yet. =-(
Adam gave a great update about the surgery. The week has been a bit of a blur. The good news from me is that I feel pretty imbalance and not too sick to my stomach. That was definitely my biggest fear going into surgery. With the two bouts of vertigo I had (one in December and one in January) I was so fearful of being like that post-op. I am moving around just fine, I even made a batch of brownies yesterday.
The placement of this implant feels different to me, more towards my face, though mom assures me that is swelling... silly things like chewing are bothering me. Also my ear has been hot and itchy and a bit swollen...(don't worry, I am taking antibiotics, so I am pretty sure it isn't infected)...
I am just grateful to be through surgery and I have the roughest days behind me. But more importantly I am thankful for my support and love from my friends, family and students.
My mom was such a comfort to me. She makes these amazing creamed eggs on toast, bought me a recliner to recover in, did laundry... just made me feel taken care of. There is nothing like having mom around. My friends Amanda and Stacey made my family meals, and they are both so busy, it is a gesture they didn't have to do, but was appreciated deeply. Stacey is also subbing for me during my sick time and she is so concerned about doing a good job, that it touches my heart. Julie, babysat me on Adam's first day back to work. It was so nice to have a buddy around. We chatted and she made me potato soup. She also did the most amazing thing by throwing Addison a birthday party (my surgery day was his actual birthday). I know a lot of my friends and students have said prayers for me. That is all I could ask for. I have spent some of my recovery time in prayer for those around me and for my own recovery. I try to make it part of my daily routine(always not just now) to spend time in devotion, reading the Bible and praying. It is so difficult for me to slow down and relax, and it is very hard for me to seek help from my friends. When you are in a situation like I am, where you have had surgery and have two small children, you have to get over that pretty quickly. You know what is the hardest part in all of this for me? Slowing down. Trying not to keep up with the housework, trying not to bend over or strain.... The pain, that I can deal with, the total loss of any residual hearing is eerie at times... I knew that would be a struggle for me, but sadly it is slowing down that is my struggle. I certainly don't even live life in the fast lane! I am a chubby, deaf Christian wife and mom. I teach music and I love to cook and clean. So, I am armed with some books from my pastor's wife, some movies I have been meaning to watch but haven't "had time" and I hope to not just bide my time, but enjoy the slowing down and allow myself to heal so when activation day comes, I am ready!!!!!